I write because it’s a part of who I am. I wouldn’t be myself if I didn’t write.
I write because when it becomes too much to keep in my mind I unleash my thoughts on paper. I think about so many things, people, topics and outcome of situations. I often think to myself I don’t want to forget these things. It’s like working all day but forgetting to clock-in. I began writing in 9th grade, writing poems as a stress release. It was always hard for me. My siblings before me were amazing students. My mom had 6 kids being one was stressful however writing helped me cope. I had so much to live up to if I wasn’t equally as successful or greater, I lose and I didn’t want to be a loser (especially not to my siblings). I was placed in honors classes ultimately. I would look around like wait a minute these students are older than I am. I was nervous around these students. I would sit in the front alone looking at the teacher like “please help me, they’re talking about freshmen Friday… what is that?” It went on like that for weeks until Friday which I was hanging in the library writing poems, after school I went to a placed called “Open Mikes” (Poetry slams). I figured no students come in the library I’m safe; how wrong I was. All the cool kids hung out there to ditch class and I was the only freshman there…on freshmen Friday. I was sure it was my time but a girl called out “that’s mike’s sister” Mike is my brother and one of the cool kids. Another event to write about I thought to myself (How to become popular… by mistake). From that day forward I was like an instinct popular having senior friends and hanging in the library with the cool kids. While that was my place to “act cool” it was also my safe place to write. Years went on I begin to not only write for release but also just to write. I met a lady name Jane Thompson turns out she’s the director of writing or whatever at Widener. She introduced me to many things over the years which I appreciate. “I am not a scholar. I am not in the least an intellectual, which is not to say that when I hear the word “intellectual” I reach for my gun, but only to say that I do not think in abstracts.” Joan Didion. This particular quote spoke to me because in all honesty I’m not a scholar well not by choice. My end goal is success but to be successful I have to be educated. I’m just a girl that occasionally writes for personal reasons, school reasons and just fun. Joan my dear, you have a way with words. Joan always speaks about “not thinking in abstracts” which I completely agree with. I don’t have to have a logic or reason behind “Why I write” I just do it and from her explanation, I believe she just writes because it’s what she wants to do.
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